I searched for you again today.
I strained to find you amidst the chaos of a world seething with disappointment, battered dreams, and fragile hopes.
Millions of souls crying out for the answer to their hearts’ deepest longings.
I looked down the well-worn paths, the familiar places where I’ve sought you before.
Nature’s beauty was dulled.
The crisp cool air on my face did not quicken my senses as before.
It was only cold.
The golden red light of the sunset did not dazzle me with its splendor.
The orb hung in only two dimensions, flat against the dull sky.
It only moved me to squint the brazen light from my eyes.
The sounds and rhythms of life around me seemed out of tune and dissonant with my pattern.
I felt a stranger to the world.
Out of place.
Out of joint.
The faces, the touch, the voices of friends and loved ones did not reach me.
They seemed only to intrude upon my search.
Words of love, comfort, even humor, irritated and sparked anger hidden beneath my smile.
Exhausted, hope failing, desperate for you.
Weeping from the anguish of my bitter longing.
Prostrate, face to the earth, search ended – unfulfilled.
At the end of my search, at the end of one last bitter breath, after one final look outward,
I paused –
Stillness
My eyes sought a new path.
I slowly shifted my gaze.
As my eyes turned inward I was startled to discover your presence.
You were there where you have always been.
The wellspring of my heart was flooded with joy as I was filled with awareness of you.
You are a part of me, and I you.
I knew that which I have always known.
Nothing, no obstacle, no circumstance can separate me from you and you from me.
We exist together out of time.
We are eternal.
You and I will be always, even to the ends of the earth.
I found you today.
🙂
I’ve been trying to read your writings forever, seems my smartphone doesn’t allow me. I need access to a computer to read. 🙁 But this is is absolutely amazing, I had been trying to search myself yesterday and forever.
Thank you so for spending time with me! You are most welcome here.
That was breathtakingly beautiful. I actually cried because of the first half. I’m in that dry desolate place right now were nothing is good or satisfying. I can’t wait till I find my ending.
There is an ending and it is sweet and will begin to answer the questions of your heart.
powerful poem with simple words
Thank you for reading and taking the time to comment. I hope to express things in a way where the words don’t get in the way of the important part. I am glad you were here.
Good approach.. 🙂
Let’s see… In order of preference…
The Offering
Fried Catfish
Bare Feet Running
Grief — One Tear
I like Drifting, too, but then I’m prejudiced.
The others I really like are …
I Searched for You Today
Daddyhood
Change the World
I probably missed some I hurried through them so fast. The ones that aren’t so mystic are probably the best ones to use? So maybe I Searched might not be the best? What do other people think? I think you really hit your stride with Catfish. But The Offering was always perfect.
I will ask for help when I get home
If I had to pick one out of the last three it would be change the world. I think people would identify with that poem.
There are so many good ones. I should print them all off and give you your own section in my poetry binder. Can I?
You make me laugh 🙂 did you take your medicine?
You mean my prescribed verses? I HAVE read them twice. I decided I need to read them every time I’m going to email you!
🙂
Went really well with the prompt, didn’t it… It’s till lovely. I think this might be one I would submit.
Hey friend. really? Better than bare feet running? Or the drifting one?
It is one of my favorites
This is a beautiful poem, something like “A Man’s Heart” from a man’s perspective. I sort of guessed where you were going with this reading the title, because I figured that you were never going to look outside yourself for anything. If only the “lost souls” had souls, and searched without the harmful dependencies we would all go well together. x
Yes we would not need people to tie us up and degrade us quite as much:)
And we would not have to defend our wish to not be treated in that manner, after “everyone is doing it”. x
Brilliant woman!
You’re so nice to me and I needed that. Thank you.
You are my friend. I wish you only good in familiar and unexpected, unforeseen gifts of grace today and forever.
Thank you, Groovy Guy. I feel a little better and I hope things will improve throughout the rest of the week. x
I can only say WOW so many times Groovy. When did you write this one? It’s different from the others. Patterns. When you talk about patterns I get confused. You’ll have to enlighten me.
Did God tell you at church tonight to be sweet to me? It was probably a year after the first searched for you. I felt a little better after writing it but I think much of what I write is the solution written in advance. I rarely know where something is going till I get there in writing and in life. What about patterns?
The first part was so sad, I could feel the despair. Thank goodness you found each other ! beautiful 🙂
You have been kind in your comments. I appreciate every word. Thank you for being here.
The pleasure is mine. I like listening to your audios too. The sound of your voice adds another dimension and depth to your work.
Its how a southern ciuntry boy reads poetry 🙂
This is very heartfelt. Finding someone in the heart where they have always been and remain, existing eternally together in and out of time. Very beautiful and powerful piece. And the audio brought so much life to it than how I read it.
Thank you for taking the time to read it and comment. I value your opinion
always a pleasure
Goes to the heart and soul, deep juices, and good meat! It’s amazing how few of us church folk don’t really know who we are! Mans Religion has put a barrier up between our true Soul and Spirit with such deception, if we just work harder, do good more, disciple more, God will love are great works! We are not capable of pleasing him, our dung brains, and filthy rags, and sacrifices do not impress Him! What does impress Him is our Trust and Belief in His Abba Father Care, Protection, and Nourishment! Just like what I saw in all 6 of my children (Gods children really) when they could offer nothing the whole 18 months or so when they were filled with that kind of Love and Trust and Nourishment through our Unconditional Love in us! If you being filthy, dirty scum, long to give our children gifts to see that love and smile deep in their souls, How Much More does He, Being God who spoke the galaxies in to exhistance, How Much More Does He Want To Give us With the True Unconditional Love, Grace and Mercy and Everything He Is and Has to offer! Without a Heart of Faith, we cannot please him! That’s All He wants, for us to get up in His Lap, and soak in like His Baby the Rich Milk and sustenance He Longs to Bless us with!! It is then when we trust Him to receive it who we truly are and the reason He made us!!