I have skills
I have intelligence
I have proven courage
I am creative and imaginative
I have an easy way with people
I am moderately attractive
I am strong in action
I have access to resources
I am healthy
I have led
I have followed
I am experienced
Yet I sit
I am not lazy
I am accustomed to work
But now even marking white screen with black symbols is an effort
To what end
An act of faith, or a shot in the dark
I have
I have
I am
I am
Yet it all seems a mask, paper mache
Wire, paper, glue and hollow inside
Or perhaps a game played but no longer interesting
I seek a calling
A reason
A vision to manifest
A vocation to which I will submit the second half
A new reality on which to focus what I have and who I am
That I may be remade, renewed, restored, and redeemed
I want to be alive before I die
In submission to the true calling of my Soul
I will find my freedom
The search is the thing, my friend. I really like the raw honesty.
Thank you. I always thought I was honest about things but there is a much deeper and subtle secret place I had no consciousness of.
There is always more, isn’t there? Dig deeper, and then you have only to dig even deeper!
🙂
You want me to read more of your poetry. Well done! 🙂
Well yes! And tell me if its good or if it sucks.
It takes a crisis or a severe change to be able to genuinely reflect upon where we are in life. I feel like many of us are here, yet unable to express our state of mind, being or soul.
You do. 🙂
Thanks for the vote of confidence. 🙂 Soul wanderers of the world unite!
See. Fight the power!
🙂
(Computer shut down to do updates and I lost my second comment. Grrr…) I was saying I usually read your work first and comment, then listen and comment. This poem is such a beautiful synopsis of where you are on your journey at the moment. It made me feel very still and aware inside.
I am trying to write myself into my future
And that won’t happen without a fight because everything in the world seems to put pressure on us to stay the same. Predictable, manageable, tractable, compliant… I think maybe you’ve been going through an intense battle with those forces lately. Maybe?
Awesome concept, writing oneself into the future, and I thoroughly enjoyed reading this thoughtful piece.
Thank you. This is so much more than my little ego. As I work through this process there are few guideposts and it can feel a bit crazy. Thoughtful feedback that some of this resonates with others helps to bring substance to what seems to me to be formless drivel at times. Again thank you. I doubly appreciate it because I respect your work
Or trying to write your future into yourself…beautiful, thoughtful post Plato’s Groove. it made me think of that saying “You are that which you seek”…
🙂 yes mam
Oh! There’s that human spirit determined to survive. I love the way you interjected “I am not lazy” in the middle of the thought processes. Gawd! My mind goes down that same path frequently. Depression will do that to you. Remember, dear heart: The Lord blessed the latter days of Job more than his beginning… (Job 42:12) I wouldn’t give that to you if I didn’t believe it given my relationship with the Almighty at the moment. This is a terrific reboot, dude.