Hm… If stillness = anxiety, does NOT analyzing = anxiety for me? And if being still = healing = remembering who we are, then what if remembering who we are makes us anxious? (Just thinking out loud here since I’ve decided anxiety is probably my biggest addiction.) The one thing I think I’ve figured out the last couple months is that you’re right when you say “the urgency to do doesn’t come from the Creator, it just keeps things stirred up.”
Stillness as I am trying to say is not equal to anxiety. It is the ground out of which all the rest emerges. Self consciousness of the ego may provoke the anxiety and the development of what is referred to as self or ego. Stillness Is outside of ego and anxiety. Nothing wrong with activity or thinking but those modes of being are limited and can be confused as “real” and final when they are only making up part of who we are. . . . Maybe 🙂
I feel more in control when I’m analyzing those different bits and pieces of me (my ego?). So being still and not doing that, does that make me anxious? The last two months I seem to be struggling with that anxiety more again.
Maybe think about it as fun and interesting and a game. Now you are anxious about being anxious. 🙂 feeling in control is a fun game. But what is control? There is a very important part of you who knows and “controls” how to open your hand and pump your blood and grow your hair and breathes when you sleep and dreams and watches you being anxious about being anxious. All of those parts of you are generally outside of the game of the intellect and are far more profound to your physical existence than bits and pieces of ego. 🙂
Hm… If stillness = anxiety, does NOT analyzing = anxiety for me? And if being still = healing = remembering who we are, then what if remembering who we are makes us anxious? (Just thinking out loud here since I’ve decided anxiety is probably my biggest addiction.) The one thing I think I’ve figured out the last couple months is that you’re right when you say “the urgency to do doesn’t come from the Creator, it just keeps things stirred up.”
Stillness as I am trying to say is not equal to anxiety. It is the ground out of which all the rest emerges. Self consciousness of the ego may provoke the anxiety and the development of what is referred to as self or ego. Stillness Is outside of ego and anxiety. Nothing wrong with activity or thinking but those modes of being are limited and can be confused as “real” and final when they are only making up part of who we are. . . . Maybe 🙂
I feel more in control when I’m analyzing those different bits and pieces of me (my ego?). So being still and not doing that, does that make me anxious? The last two months I seem to be struggling with that anxiety more again.
Maybe think about it as fun and interesting and a game. Now you are anxious about being anxious. 🙂 feeling in control is a fun game. But what is control? There is a very important part of you who knows and “controls” how to open your hand and pump your blood and grow your hair and breathes when you sleep and dreams and watches you being anxious about being anxious. All of those parts of you are generally outside of the game of the intellect and are far more profound to your physical existence than bits and pieces of ego. 🙂
Ok. I’ll keep pondering on it. Thanks. 🙂
(Sorry… Just trying to understand.)