A Father’s Province – Audio

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They have eyes of blue and hearts of gold.

Flesh of my flesh, bone of my bone.
They are of me, yet profoundly Other than me.

Their dependence decreases, moment by moment, choice by choice, as personality and character coalesces. Soul becomes known.  Small round bodies, unsure, become angular, strong and elegant.

Hints of the ancestors glimpsed, reflected in appearance,
posture, and mannerism.
Shadows of their mother and I emerge as different facets turn,
reflected in the light of their living.

See the man arise beneath the surface of the boy.
Hints of the woman foreshadowed in the girl.
Each unique and other worldly as a snowflake,
yet familiar as my own breath.

I am startled to recognize their autonomy –
their separateness from me.
And in that sacred space between the roles we play out in Time, flashes of their glory leave me awed.

They are my equal yet better than I.

Recognition of their immortality, the deity inherent in their volition saddens, yet brings strange comfort.  I grieve the blow to my ego.

I have much less dominion over them than I imagine,
yet I am greatly more important to them than I know.

They are neither damned by my weakness
nor necessarily elevated by my substance.

They are free and I am humbled.

I am Daddy to these three souls, at least for now.

And within the bandage of Time they are to me what they can be to no other and I am to them what no other can be.

While inhabiting the boundaries of this dressing we play out appointed roles.
Yet in Eternity we will have had and shall ever be One.

They have eyes of blue and hearts of gold.

Those have been and will ever be constant through the metamorphosis of flesh, circumstance, and experience.

Those same eyes which gazed up to me at the dawn of their journey will look down upon me at the ending of mine.

And yet our hope holds fast that when Time is finally swallowed by Eternity we will then know as we have been known.

We will recognize and finally comprehend the glory
of the everlasting souls with which we have journeyed.

Hearts pure, refined, and utterly alive.

Then together we can all play once more in the presence of the One who has watched over us all.

Your Daddy loves you very much.

But, I love you more.

51 thoughts on “A Father’s Province – Audio

  1. Glad to see you’re getting your house rearranged! Just checking the comments for you to see if they work right now. Good to talk to you this morning. DON’T GET SICK!!! 😀

  2. A true gift of your Love for your Children, they only have to look in your eyes to know how much you love them. These words will be with them forever as will your love wherever you may be. A Man with such love in his heart and his Soul.

    • I always told them that” Your Daddy loves you but I love you more”. Makes me happy and sad at once. The oldest in married the middle boy is in college the baby girl is driving and Daddy is getting grey. 🙂 Thank you so much for reading and saying something especially about this one.

  3. This is absolutely amazing. Im sure they have it hanging up and as you see your ode to them blossoming on their walls you again stand in awe.

    Becoming a father I absolutely loved these lines

    “They are neither damned by my weakness
    nor necessarily elevated by my substance.

    They are free and I am humbled.

    I am Daddy[…]”

    well done my friend.

  4. My guess is they know in the deeps of their souls just what kind of father they have in you. You know there’s nothing more important than that in a child’s life. HL used to pray over the kids when they were young (pre-junior high age). I would read the bedtimes stories, he would put them to bed. He always laid his hand on their head when he prayed for them. I hope someday they realize the significance of that. No matter what else happens on your journey, writing that poem for them is something very special.

  5. This is what I’m thinking about: Your Daddy loves you very much. But, I love you more.

    I’m confused about the two references. Is it the children saying they love you more? Forgive my, my friend, I’m a bit slow sometimes.

  6. So I’m trying to get a perspective on this. YOU are daddy, SHE is your soul?

    “Those same eyes which gazed up to me at the dawn of their journey will look down upon me at the ending of mine.” That is so profound…

      • Good morning friend! What a wonderful gift to give your children! A piece of your self. I really liked the “Your Daddy loves you but I love you more part.” You’re no longer a figure, but a whole human. Not that we ever get to physically leave the role as parent, but it feels right on the day I take my 18 year old for the driving test. Well, actually he will be taking me through the squalls and black ice on the highway. This is a beautiful companion piece to go with your previous piece about aging, when you take your blog and publish the book and CD compilation. Nudge, nudge, hint, hint… 🙂

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